my life lately.

hey bloggy! im back! with drama! drama! drama! pergh!

is it me or life is just that way? i have turned 20 around 3 weeks ago & i have been living my whole life with complete dramas. family, puppylove, friendship, you name it, i experienced almost all of it. well atleast i dont think myself as some celebrity thing. latest drama in my life is I'M GETTING MARRIED THIS 26TH! :D

anyway, for the last few month. well actually from the begging of the year, i have been having CRAZY DRAMAS! crazy i tell you! i admit, i had another guy & wanted to leave my man, then in the end i broke up with the other guy & choose my man, but then my man has another girl. but when i found it out, he left the bitch just like that though. 'horay'? i think. pfftt. it still doesnt change the fact that he is stupid cause i trusted him not to actually be doing the same thing. karma i tell you. relationships are like that i suppose. wait no, life is like that!

what my man doesnt know was what had been going on in my life since he was too busy with his stupid fat bitch. i had to go through things on my own. my family was going crazy without my dad at that time since he was off to KL. school was even crazier that i almost quit. he doesnt know that i dont have money for my own lunch cause i didnt wanna ask from him since i wanted him to save. & i expected him to pay off his car loan & phone bills. but turns out he didnt paid his car for 3 months & his phone bill for like ages. & instead he goes paying the bitch's handphone bill. like wtf? doesnt she know a guy have a life too? what a gold digger. i pity her. but i pity her future husband the most. if she will have one LOL! i suppose she is suffering now as she has lost her ride & money & still has a fat ass.

i know what you people may be thinking. like "why marry the douche?". well, everyone has their reasons when it comes to this. since i started a relationship, i have been with a thousand douches & turns out after i broke up with them, they suddenly got smart with their new girlfriends. well that was after i blabbed on how they should treat a woman & rejected their tears of wanting me back though. so i put myself leaving the man im going to marry ani. & for the first time, i couldnt actually imagine doing it. despite of what he did, it made me realized that i love this douche! it also made me realized my own mistake & somehow it made me willing to be better. thats when i noticed this thing we have is different & im not gonna let it him go just like that & give him to another fat bitch or whatsoever.

my point of the story is, people make mistake. it was my mistake to trust him 100%, his mistake to be a douche & the fat bitch's mistake to easily trust guys. not that she is counted in our problems, i just feel like saying that. anyways, anyone deserve chances. especially if that person is a person we know for a long time, right? though we might want revenge. i do my revenge my own way. i dont go search for guys, oh no. im not a bitch to do that. instead, i will demand for what i want most & that will make me happy. if i dont get it, hes dead. well he should be thankful. its either that or me with another guy. & if i do it his way, being with another guy, i wont do it secretly from him.

so baby, if youre reading this, i have told you. my feeling for you are sincere but do that silly mistake again, you know what i will do. youve seen me dealing with those who mess with me. you dont want that, neither do i. yes, i still hate you but that doesnt mean i stopped loving you okay. note that in your head! you know i love you, douche! :) ♥

p.s. - this is me who is angry yet, still in love. so dont mind the fire :)

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